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06/04/2009
QotD: Emergency Contact
Who do you write down as your Emergency Contact? Why did you pick this person?
My dad is my emergency contact. I picked him, because I know he would drop whatever he's doing to make sure I'm okay. He's one of my best friends. My husband might do the same, but he's a pessimist. I don't need someone telling me how much worse things appear than what they really are. He's not so good with words either. He sometimes says the wrong thing or says something the wrong way or at the wrong time. I love him though. Haideh would have to decide what's more important, and that might take too long. I don't want to bother Tamara; she has two boys to look after. My mom would be too busy telling the doctors she told me so.
05/01/2009
ThreadBanger Discovered
ThreadBanger Discovered
04/29/2009
The Worst Feeling Ever
Two weeks ago, I began having terrible thoughts. I couldn't stop telling myself how much I absolutely hated me. I picked at everything I did wrong. I literally felt like hanging myself from a noose. It has to be the medication the doctor put me on for clinical depression and severe anxiety. Effexor. I have now taken myself off of it thrice. This last time was for 4 days. I went to sleep a little while ago, had a horrible nightmare, and I'm back on it. The things I've been feeling since I went off of it are HORRIBLE. At first, I just felt like I was continuously shaking inside. Then came the other withdrawal symptoms: fear (of every little noise, every shadow, someone walking up to me in broad daylight), the distinct feeling of heart palpitations everytime I get up to do something (lasting the entire time I'm up), and on top of that, I constantly hear a kind of shrillness in my ears. That's what I call it anyway. I'd compare it to the sound of someone's teeth scraping a metal fork while eating. Only this time, it's ebbing with the beat of my heart. I honestly feel like I'm going nuts. Next time I'm typing will be from the inside of a 5x9 cell, possibly padded. It's the extremely vivid dreams I'm having that will drive me over the edge. I keep dreaming I'm waking up, and after the 3rd or 4th time, I realize what is really going on. Then I have the worst time trying to get myself to snap out of my dream. I start to panic. My heart feels as though it's racing, and it probably is. What the heck am I supposed to do? I think I need a rest. I need some me time. Time to think about myself. I'm so sick of waiting on my husband to make it home from Mississippi. He asks me all of the time if I still want him to come home, if I still miss him. He tells me not to give up on him coming home. If I go off the deep end, I'm going to blame him. Things will have to change when he finally gets here. If not, I'll make a permanent change. I'm tired of letting everyone and everything control my life. Tomorrow, I'm making a doctor's appointment and an appointment with my therapist, whom I haven't seen since December. Something needs to change .
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04/07/2009
Ten Ways to Improve Your Quality of Life
Marcus Vorwaller at the Best Tool For The Job blog has finished his series on ways to improve the quality of your life. The titles themselves give you enough to think about
1. Think daily. Meditate. Call it what you will but spend time each day alone with your thoughts. This surely isn’t the first time you’ve heard that advice, there’s a reason for that! There’s also a reason that this is the first step in the list. Doing the other things in the remaining nine suggestions without taking some time to reflect almost negates any benefit gained elsewhere.
2. Get in the zone. Not only will these be your most productive moments in life (the 20% of the time where you accomplish 80% of the results) but it will be a boost to your confidence that will alter the decisions you make elsewhere in life.
3. Make it a point to do something bold every day. Step out of your comfort zone, leave the routine even if for only a second. This might mean talking to someone that you generally wouldn’t talk to or starting a project that you feel intimidated by. There is no need to plan it in advance–though that might help at times, usually though you’ll find a point during the day when ‘two paths diverge in the woods’ and you have the change to take the one less travelled by. Take it.
4. Learn something new. Pick a topic, preferably something you know nothing about and learn something about it. A good source of inspiration for this can be the newspaper or Wikipedia. It helps to retain it if you have time to make a note of what you learned or explain it to someone else, but even if you don’t get the chance to do that, your brain will thank you for the new patterns you introduce as you learn something new every day.
5. Debate something. If you think you know about something, nothing will prove it like arguing it with someone who’s smarter or more informed than you. Find a friend you can debate with who has ideas that are different from your and who won’t be offended by debating them–this is easier said than done, but it can provide you with some of the best mental stimulation possible.
6. Spend time with a child. If you have one, consider yourself lucky, if you don’t, I bet you have friends who would be happy to let you borrow theirs for a few minutes (or hours). It doesn’t matter what age they are, children see the world entirely different. Look at it from their eyes. Be their hero. Appreciate what they appreciate. Enjoy the simple things again. You’ll love it and they’ll love you for it.
7. Go outside. If you don’t naturally spend time outside, make it a point to do it more. There’s something about the expanse of the sky that will bring out your inner philosopher.
8. Recognize what makes you happy. Reflect on the parts of your day that bring you real satisfaction. Everyone is working towards something, but what makes you happy now? Rate your overall satisfaction with your quality of life for each day on a scale of 1 to 10, focus on the things that happened that pushed the number higher rather than what made it lower. Try to incorporate more of what made you happy yesterday into today.
9. Stop broken thoughts. Broken thoughts are those subtle patterns that aren’t quite big enough to fall into the bad habits category. This means that despite their harmful effect they often escape under the radar. Broken thoughts often take the form of justifications. Examples? I’m just going to leave my dish here by the sink, I’ll wash it later (when you know your spouse will end up washing it). I’m bookmarking this article to read later (how often do you ever go back and read old bookmarked articles?). I’ll hang my shirt up later (when you know it will be there for a week before you touch it).
http://www.lifehack.org/articles/lifehack/ten-ways-to-improve-your-quality-of-life.html
04/01/2009
QotD: April Fools' Day
What's the best April Fools' Day prank you've witnessed today?
Mine. I told my dad that my husband and I were getting a divorce. His face was so serious, and he looked like he was going to be sick. After I told him April Fools, he was telling he doesn't like to hear about stuff like that. Oh well. It was the only thing I knew that would really get some kind of reaction from him. :)
They always make it sound so easy...
Tips for improved health and healthy weight control
1. Drink a glass or two of cool or cold water when you wake up to help rehydrate and stimulate peristalsis to clear your colon.
2. Do 10 to 30 situps a few times a day
3. Do 5 to 10 pushups a few times a day.
4. Take at least a 20 minute to 30 minute walk each day.
5. Drink water flavored with stevia as a substitute for sugar-laden sodas or fluids. You can mix lime-flavored stevia drink packet in 2 pints of water.
6. If you tend to overeat at night to help you fall asleep, consider the occasional use of Good Night Rx one to three hours before bed.
7. Do not buy icecream, chocolate, pastries, or other calorie dense foods. If they are in the house, you are likely to eat them. Rather, have a number of fresh fruits and vegetables in the kitchen and you can munch on them.
I found this list on physicianformulas.com. It was under the Diet-Rx info.
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